Friday, May 8, 2020

Am I Supposed to Be Here??

(Haha, I love Clerks.)


So let's break this down, shall we? I've been thinking about natural selection as it applies to my life. 

Natural selection is "the process whereby organisms better adapted to their environment tend to survive and produce more offspring."

Enter technology, i.e. medical advances.  I should never have survived past infancy, and my body has continued trying to break me down my entire life, including being vastly mysterious to doctors.  My brain chemicals even joined the fight.  If it wasn't one thing, it was another.  Congenital heart defects (requiring surgery at 3 months old and 10 years old) would have taken me out before I turned one without medical intervention.  But let's talk about my mom- she had open heart surgery at age 12 or 13.  Would she have survived to get pregnant and birth me without fixing her heart condition? 

And then there's the MAJOR guilt I feel over having kids myself.  My youngest was born with the worst heart issues our family has ever seen.  He had his second heart surgery at 9 years old, and he might need another in the future.  Hell, so might I. 

My question is- at what point does this become unacceptable?  Should the government intervene in families like mine to stop us from progenating?  That's kind of extreme, but people like me really aren't strengthening the human race.  We are starting to be born without a tailbone or appendix or wisdom teeth.  We are evolving, so why am I here?  I'm just a defective model.